Thursday, January 6, 2011


This year was hard for me...

I got to be Ketua kebersihan, and constantly struggled about my duties foolishly...
No ones scolding me if I'm not doing my work. But I kept feeling guilty. When I wanted to do it, I was afraid of the class' reaction. How stupid. Haiz. I don't understand why I can be so scared of rejection and others' views towards me.

I got a demerit, and felt super guilty about it... For once I felt like hating the teacher. But I didn't want to as well. Just laughing at myself here LOL. At my 矛盾 statements~

And it was quite sad with quite a few people leaving us...

Well, and it was SPM. OK, No need to say about that anymore.

I think I was just blabbering.


I've grown:
This year was a lesson and a preparation class for me.
The future ain't gonna be easy;
I must persever and be courageous.

I love all the friends in Chung Ling! All my family even more!
and God.... who never left me....

Bye bye...

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Christmas and scribbles

Hello. I've been slacking around after SPM :D

No time to blog. Opened facebook. And you know what happens.

And now, this Christmas would be a turning point for many of us: we'll be going from secondary to tertiary studies... and Some ask, "What am I gonna be doing in my life?"

Anyways, wishing all of you MERRY CHRISTMAS!



What do you want most for a gift?
When I think about it... I don't really know.... I've got many things. I feel quite satisfied.

I don't need much entertainment stuff. and most of all, I've got Jesus! :D What else would I need?

The Psalmist says [Ps 23:1]: "The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want."

By the way, there's a question that many people keep bugging me with: "What are you gonna do?" [career]

Haiz. I don't know. I've always said I wanna do God's will. But what's that? I wanna help others to know Him. In the end, just seek His face, not so much what I'm gonna do.

LOL, I'm being quite 矛盾. Ambivalent?

But I do know, that With GOD, all things are possible. I've found peace. I'll keep on trusting.

God bless!

Wednesday, October 13, 2010


Now's the time for registration of camps.

I chose to stay here for hols. Well, partly coz I wanted to go for this camp xD
Youth Camp of BB =) I don't know why I really wanted to go... It might be my last year after all...

Comparing last year's to this year's CF camp, it was quite well. And I hope that during this camp, many more BB/GB members will come to know Jesus =)

And also... YOUTH QUAKE!

It was the first national youth camp I joined... I think in Form 1?

I do hope that this time, God will truly move in all the campers. I think I'll go for it again this year. But I do hope I've still got time for party, church events and saying goodbyes to my friends. *sniff

God bless

All the best for SPM!

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Beautiful Prayers

I looked up for some prayers... and found these:

This one's commonly known now as the serenity prayer... before that it was untitled.

Grant me the serenity;
To accept the things I cannot change;
The courage, to change the things I can;
And the wisdom, to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
As it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
If I surrender to His Will;
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life
And supremely happy with Him
Forever and ever in the next.
__________Reinhold Niebuhr
Adapted by William Spencer

This one became well-known after World War II.
Lord, make me an instrument of your peace;
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon:
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope
where there is darkness, light
where there is sadness, joy
O divine Master,
grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.

__________St Francis of Assisi

Let it be true, a real PRAYER to our God ;)

Exams! I do need peace from God :D

Thursday, August 26, 2010

update lol

Haiz, have been sleepy everyday, gotta improve my time management!

Have been into a few Jazz music - like Oscar Peterson's "You Look Good to Me". :D

SPM: around 89 days left?


what pull the socks up? Gotta get rid of my sleepiness dulu hehe

Bye~ short post.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Time to pull up my socks!

We were having cell group...
and the WORD was about Your Work Matters to God...

Hmm.... I changed it to more like... your STUDIES matter to God for us.

Have I been trying hard enough?

I think not.. My last exam was not a feat at all.. I didn't even study hard. If it was good, it was only by God's mercy it is so....

23Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, 24since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving. Collosians 3:23-24


The teeny and tiny things we do.. do it for the Lord, and give our best!

Yeah, pull the socks up, get ready for the run ~~~

Zooming off :)

Wednesday, June 16, 2010


Hey guys, I just returned from CF CAMP 2010 few days ago.

Came back for like a day, and SERIOUS headache occurred causing a weird kind of pain around my head, spreading down my face and my spine.

I feel the pain again.
Maybe it's too long hours in front of this computer?

I don't know how, but this mechanical device has some sort of power that entices me to touch it, every single day... Come to think of it, nearly 99% of my years i've used the computer. Meaning only around than 1% of the year I don't touch it at all. Even during exams I switch it on to listen to music...

During the camp, I was SAVED from this bondage! :D

Well, naturally, you would ask, "How was the camp?"
I'd say, "Not bad..."
"But, it could've been better..."

But I sure had some fun there.... with my group 'High Five', we won four prizes!
1. Best Team
2. Best Girl Team Leader
3. Best Dorm [Dorm leader in our team lol]
4. Best Drama performance

LOL... I don't know why our group could win the drama.. To me the idea was pretty stupid... But Christopher did a good show of Mr. Bean. And the duo in my team - Christopher and Way Yang made the camp a fun experience for me!

About the camp theme... It is PASSION: Holy Combustion...
I wonder why we camp committee picked this theme... We made up the second part ourselves... Sounds pretty cool huh?

We had mystery night, where I had to be the Phantom.. haiz, maybe I should have ran more... After the event they said finding me was the easiest xD [It was a manhunt]

Well, yeah, I had fun...

But my soul was not satisfied with this camp... I think this time, maybe we made quite a few mistakes as committee.. Throughout the camp, we constantly forgot to pray.. even before the camp... Then the participants are always in cliques..

Well, there's a lot more... But I'm still glad that it ended well [but I have to say that it was not THAT good]

Passion... what does it mean to you? Wilson, PCC's Youth Pastor/Leader explained to us about it..

Passion is in your heart; Your heart is where your treasure is; Your treasure is what you want most=your innermost desires....

Thus... where is your treasure? You'll need a heart transplant to recover a passion! For our heart is evil~ Don't follow your heart, it's not the right way!

Enough about CF camp for now...
It's all back to basics- Accepting Jesus as our Christ and Saviour - Laying our life down for Him- we shall have the passion.. The thing is whether we can maintain the first love we had.

I've been rocking here and there for quite some time during this Form 5 year. I just don't know what to do....and I'm constantly unsure of many things... I was not firmly grounded on Him, Christ is solid rock..

Being a Christian is not easy... When we chose to believe and follow Jesus, we need to lay down our lives, TOTALLY, for HIM ALONE! And it costs a lot! I just can't really get myself to be in total surrender.... But I have forgotten...

How much He loves me.. How much He sacrificed for me... He has never left me...

-Remember me O Lord... and Remind me Lord, of all the times you've been with me.....
Your Love O God, is so wonderful... Remind me...

PS: I think Passion flower is the most beautiful flower! Look up how it got it's name...